As the silence tightens, I begin to weep.
Drowning in the blood of sorrow as it consumes me.
Shut thy eyes and drift off into the deep sleep.
Cursed from birth by this evil within me.
It speaks.
They move.
As the darkness grows.
If your father can hear my call, let him know to leave me be.
Forced to exist...
but now it’s my time to bleed.
Suffer through my punishment; a design.
For the pain I’ve caused.
For the pain I’ve learned.
A never ending cycle.
Tormented by the days that linger on...
An everlasting love for hate.
Bathing in my own pit of consistent misery.
I see them in the dark and they speak it into me.
Existence is punishment and I have been left alone.
No forgiveness within the suffering is all I’ve ever known.
Feel my wrath and know my pain as it feeds on my hatred.
Of who I once was.
Lingering within my walls.
Speaking of false gods and lost prophets.
Have I ever known of peace?
Will I forever burn here?
Drowning.
Failing.
A life that’s leaving.
Focused; it’s reaping...
As I watch my world crumble at my feet.
I’m lost again...
I am my own sin...
Failed by the grace of gods hands.
The overwhelming pain is merciless.
Lost control; I am nothing.
Sinking deep into the emptiness.
It won’t hold back.
Tearing at the motherfucking seams.
No light left.
All I’ve ever known has been suffering.
I drown in the abyss back into the nothing.
My spirit kneels before me and it dies slow.
Every day, I let this motherfucking hate grow.
No light left.
Deep into the dark, I see the shadow.
Of the man that I once was.
But the one that I will never know.
Force fed my hatred.
There is no hope.
What’s the point in feeling able when I can’t even function through the day?
A lost cause walking through dirt.
I ache to stay the fuck away.
Suffer.
Sadistic sounds force me to suffer.
Like a motherfucker.
If a god can’t save me, what the fuck makes you think you can?
You are all in my world.
I’m out of luck with no upper hand.
Forced into the suffering.
Into the nothing.
credits
released April 16, 2021
Engineered and mixed by Trae at Like Mikded Company.
Vocal tracking by Mychal Soto.
Mastered by Pete Grossman at Bricktop Recording.
Album art by Logan Evans.
Logo by Chris Englebert.
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